dancing.in.the.moonlight.

Yesterday I was sitting at the lunch table with the youngest boy I nanny.

“One of my friends likes to kiss.” He said. “oh really? What does he kiss..?”

“umm idk…” he looked shy.

“does he kiss girls?” I asked. “no! You gotta be like 40 or 60 years old to kiss a girl!” He said giggling.

Sooooo cute.

I started nannying four little boys yesterday that is three days a week. not to bad right? well its from 7:30 AM to 6-6:30ish PM! the boys are full of energy. ages 5,9,10, and 12. 

Its a great experience, the home is kind of a broken home and I know that the family lacks Jesus in their lives.

Today I had three of the boys (one is still in school) at the park. After playing soccer with the little guys and one of the older ones rejoicing with his win I turn to see him take off towards his younger, much smaller brother who was facing me. Just before I could say anything this boy full on football tackles him and lays him out on the grass. As he is laying on the grow the youngest boy runs up and pulls his hair. Talk about little boys…

“Drew, that is not okay!” I said to the older brother as Ian ( the boy who got body slammed) takes off running- (this is how I have already seen him cope with getting picked on or hurt.)

“and Luke, why did you pull his hair when you saw that your brother was already in pain?” I asked the little one. 

“well I was just trying to help him up…” yeah…i dont think so little guy. 

obviously the game of soccer had ended on that note. I knew there needed to be an apology from the two boys that had hurt their brother otherwise I would need to put them in timeout. 

Once Drew, Luke ( the bully boys) and I reached where Ian was pouting on a bench I told Drew to sit next to his brother. As he sat down immediatly Ian moved accross to another bench. 

“Ian, come back and sit next to your brother.” - “I dont want to sit next to him.”

“well tough, you need to sit next to him now, and Luke sit down.” 

Ian walked over and sat down. …. the next part was very cool and gave me a new perspective to this busy job.

“Alright Drew you need to apologize to your brother for hurting him.” - “sorry.” 

“No Drew, what are you sorry for?” - “For hurting you.” 

“Now can you ask Ian for his forgiveness?”- “what is for/givy/ness?”

Caught off gaurd I tried to explain what forgiveness was in the simplest of terms.

“Forgiveness is what you ask when you are mad or hurt your brother. When you don’t ask for forgiveness it is like a brick that is placed between you guys and will keep getting bigger and bigger until you are not even friends with him anymore. So can you try asking him for forgiveness?”

“K I forgive you” - “uhh no he didnt do anything to you, you are the one who hurt him remember. so you need to say ’ Ian will you please forgive me for hurting you?’” 

“forgive me for hurting you?” - “Sure.” Ian said never making eye contact.

“Ian, is it a Yes or sure?” - “sure.” 

“No Ian, you need to tell your brother Yes.” - “yes.”

“okay now give your brother a sibling squeeze Drew.” 

They both gave an awkward hug and all was better after that. Very humbling to see that a couple kids had NEVER heard of forgiveness. I told them that from now on when they have an argument or hurt each other they would be asking each other for forgiveness. So cool to see that I could have an impact on these 4 little guys. 

One of these days I’m gonna fly
Over the mountain
One of these days I’m gonna ride
On the silver lining
One of these days I’m gonna witness
All I’ve been missing
One of these days

One of these days I’m gonna do
All the things that I’ve never done
I’m gonna finish all the races
That I’ve run but I’ve never won
And I’m gonna see a million faces
And recognize everyone
One of these days

One of these days
Gonna see the hand that took the nails for me
One of these days
Gonna hold the key to the mansion built for me
One of these days
Gonna walk the streets of gold that were paved for me
One of these days
I’m gonna see my Savior face to face
One of these days

One of these days I’m gonna see
Just what became of me
On the day that I believed
When you took myself from me
And I believe I will see
What I would have been
If You didn’t save me
One of these days

And one of these days I’m gonna talk
With all the saints that have gone before
And in their sandals I will walk
And we will sit along the shore
And I will learn all the things
That I never knew before
All this and more

One of these days I’ll finally be
In a place where there’s no more need
No more pain and no more grief
No more foolish disbelief
And all the joy there will be
When at last we finally see
One of these days

You wrote a letter and You signed your name 
I read every word of it page by page 
You said that You’d be coming, coming for me soon 
Oh my God I’ll be ready for You 

I want to run on greener pastures 
I want to dance on higher hills 
I want to drink from sweeter waters 
In the misty morning chill 
And my soul is getting restless 
For the place where I belong 
I can’t wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song 

I hear Your voice and I catch my breath 
‘Well done my child, enter in and rest’ 
Tears of joy roll down my cheek 
It’s beautiful beyond my wildest dreams 

I want to run on greener pastures 
I want to dance on higher hills 
I want to drink from sweeter waters 
In the misty morning chill 
And my soul is getting restless 
For the place where I belong 
I can’t wait to join the angels and sing… 

I want to run on greener pastures 
I want to dance on higher hills 
I want to drink from sweeter waters 
In the misty morning chill 
And my soul is getting restless 
For the place where I belong 
I can’t wait to join the angels and sing 
No, I cant wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

Our beloved Father please come down and meet us
We are waiting on Your touch
Open up the heavens shower down Your presence
We respond to Your great love

We won’t be satisfied with anything ordinary
We won’t be satisfied at all

Open up the sky fall down like rain
We don’t want blessings we want You
Open up the sky fall down like fire
We don’t want anything but You

Our beloved Jesus we just want to see You 
In the glory of Your light
Earthly things don’t matter they just fade and shatter
When we’re touched by love divine

Here we go let’s go to the throne 
The place that we belong
Right into His arms

Open Up The Sky - Deluge

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of it’s suffering I do drink
Of it’s work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

“Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifiting eyes and vancancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered “have we met?”
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it’s way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go
I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I’m wide awake
Now I’m pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I’d open up and you would say,
It was enchanted to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you”

life for me has changed recently and its been the best thing for me. at first i didnt like it but i realized that the Lord answered my prayers exactly like i asked and i know that i am better off now. I am loving life and loving my friends more and more. they are the best. 

Jeremiah 29:11 … life verse for sure.

sometimes change needs to happen but I am scared of making it. even if I dont plan on the change or want it to happen, it does. and it sucks. my life has changed a ton in the last 9 months and sometimes I want to go back to like a year ago and do things differently.

Jer. 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you. Not to harm you, but to give you a hope and a future.

God is in control.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart